December 19th, 2010. Today I woke up already in a weird mood. It was one of those days that you rise out of bed and reflect on the past weekend, week, month, but for me it was my childhood all the way up to the present day. I logged into my email and opened up an article written by Matt Aspen. The article spoke of our childhood and brought back memories that I seemed to have forgotten. I then thought about all of the unique and amazing people that have come into my life. Some of them by chance, some because I have this problem where I seem to talk to everyone who comes anywhere near me, and some I feel entered my life for a reason. I thought about the one that got away. I thought about everyone back home in Massachusetts and how much I truly miss them. The people I grew up with in Somerset, spending endless summers together and epic winters. Constant reunions on school breaks and always a great time. The kids I lived in the dorms with at Umass Amherst. They say that when you live in the dorms and make your first new college friends that these people will remain your friends forever, and I hope this is true. Eventually I began to think about how crazy life is, how you need to be prepared for the worst but always hope for the best. I can say my California adventure has been wild and a bit chaotic, to say the least. Although… it is only just beginning and we are in this together.
”I believe that it is when you least expect it that something great may come along, something better than you even hoped for, and it is that very thought that keeps a smile on my face” – SG – SackMagazine
My Tahoe Experience:
How Heaven on Earth Shined Its Light on Me
By: Matt Aspden
I had never been anywhere so beautiful in my life. That’s right, beautiful. Not exactly a word I throw around very often, but this place truly was. Now I’ve been to Florida, Jamaica, Cancun, but none of these tropical paradises even compared. As I headed back for the east coast, I stared out that window, tens of thousands of feet in the air, and watched as the California sunshine disappeared behind me. I remember thinking that I didn’t want to go home. Why would anyone want to leave this place? At that moment, I knew I was coming back. Maybe it was the snow-covered Sierra Mountains. Maybe it was the powerful feeling of standing right on that enormous lake. Maybe it was the people, the atmosphere, maybe even some jealousy of my best friend who calls this place home. All I knew for sure was that I was truly happy for him, and I was definitely coming back to Lake Tahoe.
Andrew, his brother Steve, and I go way back. I mean, as far back as a friendship can possibly go. Our fathers were best friends back in the day, tearing up Somerset High School until it would never be the same again. Practically from birth, our families were inseparable. I always remembered that swimming pool in the backyard. It couldn’t have been any bigger than your average pool, but back then it seemed like an ocean. I remember the basement that acted as our game room, and those slightly dangerous winding steps that undoubtedly saw us fall down from time to time. I remember the big sandbox we use to play in, and countless hours underneath that basketball hoop that seemed to tower over us. It seemed like every day we were riding our bikes to Rock Park or Chace Street. We didn’t have a care in the world then. Looking back now, they were some of the best times in that back yard on Domingos. But somewhere along the line, something happened. I don’t know what it was, but from what I know it was pointless and stupid. Our parents began to fight, over what I honestly don’t even think they themselves know. But from that point on, I didn’t get to play with Andrew and Steve anymore. All through elementary and middle school, I remember wanting to call Auntie Jo’s house, but my parents wouldn’t allow it. It wasn’t until High School that our friendship was reignited.
High school may very well have been the time of our lives. In retrospect, we did some wild and crazy things that I wonder how we even pulled them off. But the one time that will forever stand out in my memory is the summer after high school graduation. Knowing Andrew, everyone expected him to go to school to be a quarterback, a point guard, or a shortstop. But that’s not where Andrew’s real passion was. He had made the decision to go away to college, far away to a place called Sierra Nevada College. It was then that we decided to go out with an absolute bang. That was the exact moment that the idea of “The List” was born. As we sat on the back patio on Gifford, we brainstormed for hours with a little help from Ganja Babe. We decided that before Andrew left, we would make a list of everything we wanted to accomplish before he left for Tahoe. Before we knew it, we compiled a list that could only be described as epic. It was a long list, and I honestly did not believe we would finish much of what was on it. However, I completely underestimated the entire essence of that summer. Clearly, there was something bigger going on than just the routine summer activities. This was a send-off of epic proportions, and man did we do it in style. I only wish I had a copy of “The List” so I could share it with all of you. I still cannot believe some of the things we did; pool-hopping, the 50-yard line ritual, drunken fishing, climbing Mt. Washington, and the crazy insane house parties just to name a few. I’m sure Andrew still has that list, and it should probably be considered for the Sack Magazine Hall of Fame.
It wasn’t long before the summer came to an end. We had raged all night and Andrew’s flight was first thing in the morning. I dropped him off at home in the wee hours of the morning, and just like that he was off. Over the next few months, Andrew kept in touch and kept telling me about this place he was in. There was never a negative thing to come out of his mouth. He seemed ecstatic about this place, and the way he spoke about it every week made me want to go. “You have to come out here, man,” he would say, “then you would understand.” So, when my birthday came along I asked my father for one thing, a plane ticket to Lake Tahoe. When spring break rolled around, my buddy Mike and I were off for my first trip to the west coast. What a time we had out there! The people were great, much different from the people back home. Everyone was so nice to everyone. It wasn’t like back here where you walk past someone on the street and they don’t even acknowledge your presence. My whole world was basically turned upside down. Everyone was so liberated, and they thought about things much more differently than I ever would have back home. We had a great time, I was glad to visit Andrew and even more amazed at Lake Tahoe itself. I had a funny feeling then that this was not my last time at this place.
A little more than a year later, there I was at TF Green in Providence ready to board my flight to Tahoe. Only this time I was riding solo. It was the first time I ever went anywhere significant alone. I will admit I was a little worried to travel that far alone for the first time, but then I would think of where I was going, who and what I was going to see, and what I was going to do. As soon as I arrived, I knew that my last trip wasn’t even going to compare to this one. Before we even got to the “Atrium,” we stopped at a beach party to spread the word of the rager that was about to unfold. That night, my first night back in Tahoe, we had easily the best party I’ve ever been to. I did have a little help to enjoy that party, but that’s neither here nor there. There must have been at least 100 people in the atrium at once, and the booze was flowing like a running river. And you wouldn’t believe the amount of bottles and cans we picked up the next day. It sure was quite a way to start off this amazing journey. Over the next few days, I grew accustom to “living” in Tahoe. From climbing through a blizzard on Diamond Peak to an incredible showing of Avatar to one hell of a round of bowling, there wasn’t anything that we weren’t down for. I’m not going to go into too much detail, but we definitely spent most of the time extremely inebriated, which may have been the best part about all the activities we accomplished. Let’s just say we went a little bit crazy but we definitely did it right, and that is all I can really say.
Eventually, my second trip to Tahoe had to come to an end. Honestly, I miss waking up to go to Art’s coffee shop and dominating the question of the day. I miss the atrium, and everyone that I got to hang out and live with for ten days. I miss the drives to South Lake and the sessions on the edge of the mountain overlooking the entire lake. I miss the absolutely crazy Diamond Peak hikes, the In-and-Out burgers, Lupita’s $1 tacos, and the incredibly delicious happy hour wings (that they wouldn’t let us take home). I miss the snow-covered mountains and the enormous lake. I miss the tall trees. I miss the clean air. And I miss the feeling I get when I am there. But most of all, I miss Andrew and Steve.
I used to call their parents Auntie JoAnn and Uncle Dave, and I still do. To me, that makes Andrew and Steve family. And though I do miss them, I couldn’t be any happier for them. Steve, you got knocked down by life numerous times. But as we know, it’s not if you get knocked down that matters, it’s if you can pick yourself back up. You made some choices that you’ve had to live with. But I am so proud of what you’ve become and what you have done. I can only hope to contribute to this amazing cause that you have started. I envy your drive and determination, and I wish you and Sack Magazine the best. Andrew, you may not know it, but you surprised a lot of people, myself included. I envy you for one reason; you are doing what you’ve always wanted to do. You didn’t care what other people wanted you to do. I can’t remember how many times McKinnon walked into Physics class with another letter from a college asking you to be their next quarterback. But that just wasn’t for you. This is why I envy you; I envy the certainty you have. I envy your direction in life and the way you have gone about it all. But most of all, I am proud of you. It seems like just yesterday we were playing in that sandbox. Oh, how quickly we have grown up. My visits to Andrew in Tahoe really put perspective in my life. Whenever I talk to Andrew or Steve, I’m reminded of what they are doing and what they are going to accomplish. And that drives me to do what I want to do, even if I don’t exactly know what that is yet. All my life, I’ve planned on doing what other people wanted me to do. I’ve realized that I can do whatever I put my mind to, and honestly I have my cousins to thank for that. All I ever wanted for my friends was for all of us to succeed. But, my hope for you guys was always different, because you are my family. I love you guys and miss you. But I know we still have time to spend, because “some may say the good times are on the way, and I know that this is true.” Until we meet again, stand tall, reach for the stars, and keep building those castles in the sky.
Peace, Love, & Empathy
Matt Aspden